Problems

Ellen was upset on the show today.  Other things.. my dad made it impossible for me to make it online with famous people.  Everyone's scared of what he'll do or he's permeating my life.  He wants us to guess something to do instead and makes it long and drawn out.  I have no life.

I want Ellen's mom to be thought @, too.. so do it!  You nasty experimenter.. or you'll be sorry, obviously.  Well, I don't know who did it, my mom??  Maybe, I'll have to admit I think it was the experimenting.

No one's interested in me.. ya'll keep making my life so cockroachy and all.

It's interesting that people were upset @ Ellen.  She has nothing else to say.  She was upset @ my video, that's why it didn't make sense.  My mom came in and got mad at me, and I didn't seem as cool after that, too.  My dad did that to me going out with him, too.  Are these really okay parents?  No, but they're all I have.

Problem

This lady Sharon Osbourne is coming into my home and doing things like seeing if she can "control" my mom to show she's powerful and better.  How utterly racist and nasty.

trip

I'm really worried

@ the noise and the **** in my body.

Problem

My parents won't stop and shut up with the stream of secret messages!  I'm afraid it will ruin my future daughter!  My age and condition is..  I blame Tim Burton and don't wanna worry @ it too much..

Problem

My dad came in triumphant like me made me get mad at everyone on Twitter.  That Bella Thorne is acting like I'm a baby in a racist way and just sits there like she's still all that.  Get Ellen, she's already watching the wheels turn.

Also they wait for a certain time for my page to load every time cuzza that BEEP Ellen!!

Problem

Ellen was able to call my future daughter baby Jones.  I do not want to be associated with Early Boom.  Not in that way where no one else does it.

Problem

I left my bathroom mad but not being too bad but think I accidentally was a bit clumsy if you go for specifics..  Why the f*** do I sound like that good-for-nothing Anna on Frozen?  Don't think that's me, just kinda reverse the wish and see if anyone sees s*** in it.  They did what they did on purpose and for a myriad of reasons.

Problem

Ellen stop making me mad.  You don't keep up with me, you don't know what to do.  Stop talking to those nasty experimenters and making my dad sniff me.

Problems

My mom just left and was so mad at me cuz she said I had an attitude.. and I said I how I was 27..

I hurt my heel cuza my dad.

Problem

So, how are people able to hurt me quite like that?  My back is so sore, sorry if you didn't like the joke @ Hell, what else follows??

You need to stop

monitoring what I say.. It's gay today.

Mean

What does Ellen do for me?  I don't wanna say bye if I watch her show every day.  I don't want shit.  I wanna be like everyone else.  Everyone always liked me..  I don't expect much from her, so I don't know what she's doing, never had this wish..

STOP

I TOLD YOU *BEEP* TO SHUT UP AND GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE

Well

I'm not shitty like other people.  I'm nice, and you think that's uncool as your thing.

My dad got mad I was testing him @ Nell Burton.  I was lying down and I didn't feel good.  I have to hit something or m..

Problem

I don't like your shitty message from Ellen as you finish off with 1 more insult.

GO AWAY

I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU - YOU MADE ME LOSE ELLEN

STOP

You're a sinner and you're going to Hell.

I SAID STOP IT YOU'RE MAKING ME HIT THINGS AND HURTING WHERE I'M ALREADY HURT

STOP

Stop messing with me when I'm upset.

Problem

Stop m.. @ my dad.  1 bump actually hurt..  I don't find it attractive.  I'm not "doing it" with anyone.

Problem

My mom just came in the kitchen outta nowhere while I was BAKING.  I don't want her shit in my baking post.  (Sorry, let's just look at it for a little laugh.)

Well, I read Britney Spears again and her rebellious message of hurting Sarah Brightman, I caught it in the wind.  She's just a vicious machine jealous of other people who love Mickey Mouse as much as she does.  We're not all up there as kids.  Some of us have issues and other dreams and lives.

I saw Pink singing with Lily Allen on TV and I was just like ugh another Ellen DeGeneres contraption.  My mom came in and looked at me like I was stupid and tacky and in a feeling way.  She leaned over as if to spell N.  I made some banging and spilled sugar on the flo'.  I think she said I was an accident and she was talking to 1.

Serious Problem

I can't feel the relationship I had with my mom.  I sit across from my dad.  I left after doing the dishes.

I will not get close to my biological dad..  I don't wish to discuss what that means.  This is getting ridiculous.. and thinking of another word, too.  Ow, my head has the effects from that weird guy.  Stop reacting like hm yea that means she's in love.  GODDAMNIT YOU.  I SAID NO.  HOW STUPID ARE YOU?  I will not be associated with my dad in a whole new way.  He's already 63.  Not ancient but for some reason over the hill.  I think he shoulda eaten like a normal person, same for me..  It seems I ruined the world by not eating American food nor European food.  A new topic, yes, people do want to diet, but sometimes that eats us away.  I even said we need dessert to keep our metabolism functioning.  I read something @ that.

Take Him Away!

This is serious, to my therapist and all.  I think my dad needs "help."  I dunno, but he's originally from Pennsylvania and once lived there all his life about.

He is so crazy @ me thinking THEY WANTED ME TO call Nell Burton a nigger just to make race seem like it doesn't matter what other people will think or say also.

Then he goes back thinking of the store cards I needed to use- and then before me not being in my major in college cuz I was shy there they said and .. trying to get back what I loss and finding hard non-honors! classes .. and I ended up failing and not withdrawing cuz I didn't know what that might say, though years later I got them withdrawn medically it is called I think I may have gotten.  I have 1 semester here.  My teacher got me withdrawn from a semester that seemed more successful, Bs and Cs.  Also, he sneered at when the topic jumped to my life being a glorified experiment, and now with me watching Ellen is the torture experiment to save her sorry ass for something I didn't do!

So, today, at the table, Nell came up and I was thinking all like swift and in a funny friendly way, "hey wanna fight."  He somehow tapped into my comfort, like maybe cuz he's lived where we live a little longer, and I don't do mean things like this cuz I'm too good .. like spaghetti was coming outta my head and then turned to horns.  It was a totally annoying supper for us.

So, yes, my dad is always being testy.  If I tell him nicely he gets mad and threatens to throw me to Lakeside|Aspire.  My head really feels disarranged, now.  I can't feel something I once felt.  You know, recently, I went to Disney Auditions and I just find them so stupid.  I look good for the part, and other don't.  They're all disarranged and totally fat.  I have to wear a belt to hold in my stomach, too, though, I found.  He does this through gestures, the way he hits his plate! while eating, what he says that always fits in at an akward, negative moment.  I think this think @ Nell is stupid.  I really think it's all totally stupid.  I wanna know what Ellen thinks.  Get it over with, I thought already we don't care @ my dad.  :|  He knows you're lying.  Nothing at all to be done @ that..